I am mean...I need to stop

 When I was a kid I would look at my father and mother. I would see a man who looked "tough". When actually he likely felt confused and alone. My mother had a softness to her but an every present hardness. She seemed very strict but had a kind side. 

I now know that they both were ill-prepared to take care of such a large family emotionally.  What they needed was Jehovah's word and guidance. This would have aided them in coming together as one flesh and being strong like a three-ply rope, instead of the weak 2 ply rope they were. 

This was the example I was given. But, I was given more! I studied Jehovah's word in the kingdom hall and at home. The problem was I wasn't listening. I wasn't praying. I was not developing a relationship with our heavenly father. 

When I had my own little ones I ended up making the same mistake. But, I started making mistakes before they were born. With my wife, I too did the same just going through the motions and doing things my way. 

I remember so many conversations I would start with "This is what you should do in so and so situation when dealing with me". Failed every time, and Yogita confused would say "But I did as you told me to".

Huh? Yeah, she did, why didn't things work out? Because I was not following the words of wisdom found in the bible. If I followed the words in proverbs I would right started our family worship. If I prayed daily about my problems, and fears, and asked for help about my weaknesses from Jehovah putting my full trust in him I would have run back to him. BUT I DID NOT. I choose to come up with other stupid ideas.

When it came to our sons a mean dogmatic approach took over. I would not smile at them. There are different kinds of smiles. Some stay at the eyes, and other smiles can light up one's face. Sometimes just tone can show that one is smiling even though the muscles of the face do not show it. This approach first started with my wife. A gentle flower being hurt by a man not loving her as he should. Instead, he was selfish looking after his own needs, and if they conflicted with his wife's needs he would get angry and blame her.

No more. I am going to work on my tone. I will not use my background as an excuse. I will not say "Well my dad blah blah". Or "My mom did so and so". I stand before Jehovah. He shows us so many examples of love. When we studied Isaiah for our family worship you can hear Jehovah's tone. It is kind imploring, loving, warning sternly, and this is what I need to follow. There are so many others in the bible Jesus's sermons come to my mind. He sounded kind loving, and approachable. 

So I am sorry to do this to you my Yogita. I was and am foolish, and with Jehovah's aid, I will do my best to not be MEAN, but to be kind, gentle, and loving.

your man with a hole. (you and your nicknames LOL)

/tata

The most important day of the year!

 This weekend on Sunday, March 24th we will commemorate the memorial of Jesus's ransom sacrifice. 

This truly is the most important day of the entire year! This is the day over 2000 years ago that Jesus completed his mission to save all of humanity. After he was raised up he stated "I have conquered the world". This means that he suffered as a human a perfect human and his blood saved us. It ended the mosaic law and opened the blessing of salvation to all nations and tribes. This Sunday we will have a special worship session as a family. Then I plan to go on a walk with Yogita and make plans for the evening. Then after our memorial service return home and rest. Truly, rest mentally and spiritually realizing how loved we are. 

When Adam sinned right away we were taken care of. In Gen. 3:15 we read about this. Now, we are living in the latter part of the last days. Even now we can see the things Jesus spoke of taking place all around us!

The fact that we have a way out of the wages that sin pays is so wonderful! Throughout the Bible, we can see examples of humans being given many chances to change their bad ways. To repent and turn away from doing what is wrong. In our day this chance is here as well. 

A great crowd which no man can number will be saved! I look forward to that time!

Ok, almost time to start the work part of this day. 

/tata

World war 3 ....an escalation is in the wind

 Many people do not understand that World War 2 ended then with the cold war world war 3 began.

There were major conflicts throughout this period from 1950 to this day. Namely the Korean War, the Vietnam War, the War on Terror, the two Gulf Wars, and the Afgan War. Even the war on drugs now has a Chinese backing to it ruining families in the USA. The seat of power for the King of the South.

Right now militaries all around the world are building up their forces. South Korea as well as North Korea along with Japan and the USA are doing the same. Record amounts of money are being spent on this. So now we are in a phase before the hostilities go global for a third and I truly believe a final time. 

Armies are being readied here on Earth but in the heavens, angelic hosts are also being readied. I think the best thing I can do to prepare is to have extra supplies of food and water. I will not be hiding weapons for our King who is coming said "Those who live by the sword die by the sword". Also, the bible states that vengeance belongs to God alone. It belongs to Jehovah. I am not a pacifist, what I am is a Christian following the orders of my king, who is also the head of the congregation here on Earth. IF I pick up arms I am taking a side against Jesus the prince of peace. 

I want it to said that I and my family did what was right in Jehovah's eyes. So I will follow the faithful and discreet slave. Also, China is building up its navy at a record pace. Truly Jesus's words are coming true!

I need to order those MREs and some more canned goods this week. 

/tata

Time does fly...but to where?

 We are all on a road. Some of us deny this fact and live only for the weekend. During this time either a person will drink or eat to excess or dive into hobbies so deep that they forget about what they feel is the "real world". The real world being one in which people work and grind all day just to die at the end. 

But this is false! The bible tells us that this world is lying in the power of the wicked one. It tells us of a future were this one will be done away with. Well, what comes next? The real life does! We are all on a road to that real life. Those who have died will be woken up to either life or judgement. I imagine some wicked person who thought "HA, I got away with doing evil things!". Only to awake in front of a judge. At that moment realizing what they threw away, a real life! 

I know this thought fills the minds of Jehovah's witnesses and many others who read the bible and have learned the secrets with in. The many lamb like ones who are yet to be found. I want to walk this road to give thanks to Jehovah for savings us before we were even born! Gen 3:15. 

/tata